Who are you reporting to?

So, basically every morning I will report to my HOD. I don't know why I should report to him like everyday but I really hope that I could report to Him at the end of the week only.

Situation like this makes me feels like I'm still in College.

It's just wasting my time and my energy too.

Why, oh, why..

Choosing the right college

There's a lot of college nowadays offering the Occupational Safety and Health course. Be careful in choosing one cause it's for the sake of your future.My college really leaves a bad impression to me. I don't know how to describe it but the management is a total chaos. Paid a huge sum of money, after 1 month they still didn't give me my diploma and transcript. I've e-mailed the CEO and the principal but they're not responding.Seems like they're delaying it purposely. Whatever the reason is it is the most stupidest thing they ever did to a student. This is my future, how am I going to find a fucking job without the diploma and transcript?Wonder if I should file for a complaint to the ministry of education later?

Stress?!

Being away from home and ALONE is really no joke. I miss my family so bad that I hate this place so much. Why do I have to be stranded in this place?Yes, I know. It is because of my Industrial Training. Sometimes, I wonder why among all of places,why I have to be here?Why I didn't get the offer from my hometown Sabah?I don't know either.

I find it hard to communicate with my colleague. It probably because of the language barrier. Some of them only want to speak in Chinese and some in Iban. I am so used to talk in English.So that's why I ended up without friends here.

2 months have passed, 1 month to go. Oh,can't wait to go back home!

Noticed how happy I looked like in the picture?That's my old self. Now, I find it hard to laugh because I really have no one to laugh with.

I know this post is somehow sound depressed but that is the truth. I'm stressed and I think it has lead me to depression,seriously.

What had happened?

This week is the most hectic week I've ever experienced.

MONDAY: Doing the presentation slides( last minute again)

TUESDAY: Off to college to get the letters for Industrial training

WEDNESDAY: Public Holiday but I'm doing my resume &cover letter for the company plus doing 

                       Office English homework

THURSDAY: Off to college to do the printing and off to the company. At night, I have to do my presentation and I'm not do it very well ;(  & sent the homework.

FRIDAY: Presentation for Emergency Response Planning but this time all is well. The lecturer praising my group and he said I am a good+ well prepared presenter among my group ;D

SATURDAY: Today, I'm sleeping until the late afternoon and buy lot of foods from the market. Why? I  

                    have nothing to do! Next week is the study week and now I'm enjoying my pleasant day~

              

What had happened?

This week is the most hectic week I've ever experienced. 

MONDAY: Doing the presentation slides( last minute again)

TUESDAY: Off to college to get the letters for Industrial training

WEDNESDAY: Public Holiday but I'm doing my resume &cover letter for the company plus doing 

                       Office English homework

THURSDAY: Off to college to do the printing and off to the company. At night, I have to do my presentation and I'm not do it very well ;(  & sent the homework.

FRIDAY: Presentation for Emergency Response Planning but this time all is well. The lecturer praising my group and he said I am a good+ well prepared presenter among my group ;D

SATURDAY: Today, I'm sleeping until the late afternoon and buy lot of foods from the market. Why? I  

                    have nothing to do! Next week is the study week and now I'm enjoying my pleasant day~

              

The Mixed Feelings TT

Happy, shocked, shy, sad and stressed too. Here goes the story.

I woke up at 9am and there's missed calls. I ignored it. Then when I'm on my way to College, someone called me. The caller is Rus and she said she get my number from my lecturer. She asked me to do my Industrial Training & working at her company and it should be A.S.A.P! She said she want me to send the CV by this week.  I was like, OH MY!! I never expect to get such an offer. I'm still studying and I haven't graduate yet. To do industrial training and working are never be in my new year resolution.

Happy. Why?

Didn't expect to get the offer suddenly. The company is a BIG name. Should I tell you?? Here
Why I'm so happy to get this offer from this company? Simply because I LOVE moolah! Big name, big income right? Madam Rus even ask me how much allowance they should give me. I said depends on them.

Shocked


Didn't expect them to called me. Who am I to work with the big name?

Shy

I am TOO surprised and nervous too because I never expect any company to call me, okay. Due to the nervousness, I don't know what am I talking about. I mumbled. My grammar? Here and there. I don't have any preparation at all. All the answers I'm given is such a crap :(


Sad


If I am employed by this company, that's mean I have to STAY here( MIRI). I have stress my mind to work at Sabah after I graduated but now? I want to be close to my parents and siblings. Miri is not far enough but it's different. I want to see them everyday. Being TRAPPED in MIRI for 2 years++ for my Diploma is too much for me and to be away from them somemore. How about working in MIRI permanently. Argghhhh!! I know I'm thinking TOO much.

Stressed


Madam Rus called me because she's going to tell me about the offer, right? Turned out it is just like an interview TT She asked me so many things and some of the question is from my last 2 years lesson. She asked me and I answer it with another thing. HELP~

3 weeks to go...

before the end of my 6th Semester. This 3 weeks is the most important time left for me to change my exam result. I'm going to start my revision starting today. It's not going to be easy considering the fact that I have 5 subjects for this semester. Safe Work Procedure, Emergency Response Plan, Office English, Machinery Safety and Occupational Stress please be good to me :D I'm not going to do the last minute revision anymore like what I used to do for the 5 Semesters. Although I've passed with flying colours in my finals but I'm not really happy with it. It's not that I'm not grateful with it, I find it a blessing from God. It's just that I think that the cramming is not a good thing. I have been thinking a lot lately. What is the purpose of studying @taking my Diploma in Safety and Health? Am I studying just want to pass the exam or it's because of the education itself( knowledge) ? I promise myself that I'm going to achieve both. I'm going to have a good result in my finals. Also, to obtain an appropriate knowledge and an adequate education for my field of study. I want to be a competent Safety and Health Officer. Wish me luck, okay? :)

*Source

Tapau this picture from my friend fb. 

Is this how it should be done in construction site?

I don't know but I'm pretty scared actually.

To do the safety briefing every morning with the construction worker which is mainly consist of the foreigners( PTI).

So, should I become choosy? Should I prefer to work at the high prestige workplace?

No. I'm not going to be choosy. 

To at least have a job no matter what industry should be fine. 

To work with the BIG companies such as SHELL or PETRONAS is seriously a bonus.(I love moolah)

Be it a construction, Oil and gas, Agriculture or anything. 

Whatever. 

As long as I will receive my payment at the end of the month ;))

 

What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the Master calls the butterfly. 

How is goes? My presentation.

MONDAY

Safe Work Procedure presentation. Messed up and all over the place. I'm glad am able to answer the lecturer question regarding to the presentation topic which is

" The effect if there's no national and international body in regulating the safety and health?"

The question is pretty easy but due to my nervousness, I didn't managed to answer it WELL. Yeah, I am the perfectionist. My answer is this


" The organisation will lost focus, no sense of direction and will not be able to implement the safety and health effectively"

How I wished I could think deeply and adding the law and other things to make a BETTER answer.

At the end of the day, I received a good news. My bro and I got the highest mark for this subject assignment for our batch :D

TUESDAY


Office English presentation. While I was presenting, I heard the Mr. KnowItAll who's sitting really close to where I stand during the presentation LAUGH and I can see the SMIRK on his face as I delivering my words. Isn't it so STUPID? Strangely, I manage to ignore him. Motive? He's jealous of my performance? He want destroy my presentation?

I don't know. He should know the answer. I think he's born to be RUDE.


I'm not going to think about him anymore because he's not worth my time.


After all, the lecturer said that I have a good knowledge of my topic and a good confidence too.

BTW, 3 presentation to go :))

Laws & Regulations?

I'm going to be SHO, but how in earth am I going to read, interpret it in my own words and presenting it to the whole class tomorrow? I know this is a group presentation but still I have my own topic and the group members having their own laws to do too such as the OSHA 1994, FMA 1967, OSHAS 18001, etc. Mine is HSE( Health and Safety Executive) T_T

Currently reading,
Health and Safety Executive
HSE, UK
HSAW, Act 1974

..and now my head feels ssssoooooo heavy,maybe because of all of the reading thingy which making me suffocated. I don't know how should I do it tomorrow. I mean, presenting the law. Rasa macam bukan Safety course bah, tapi macam Law course suda.

Haish!

I'm sleepy and am not well prepared yet. I'm afraid if my classmates asking TOO much questions about it.
( esp. the ex-student of law who might having fun tomorrow because of the law thingy which is his major last time)

Wish me luck for my "Law" presentation tomorrow.
Going to update later on how is it going.
T____T!

Have a pleasant night, peeps.